I’m empty inside
But I still get used
I’m empty inside
But I still get pushed around
I’m empty inside
But people still expect things from me
I’m empty inside
But I’m expected to be full
Sometimes I’m not empty inside
Sometimes I’m filled to the brim
Only to be emptied out again
It’s the weight on your chest
That has no mercy
It’s me, lying in bed.
“Deep, slow breaths” they say
But it feels like I’m close to being braindead
Wait, what did you say?
Oh, just try and lay;
Funny kind of thought
Want my body to be still
But my brain is fighting for the whole lot
It’s an unhinged lot
Filled with shadows that are creeping
Dirty rodents that can’t be caught
I can never just be dreaming
If I could dream,
I would breathe freely
I would act more like a river stream
flowing so carelessly
Life’s definition is regret
Never met a person who says otherwise
Life is like playing Russian Roulette,
Just praying to cut those ties
You see me,
But can you see?
You’re blind to what I’m facing
My mind is a house
My body is just a tenant
The owner, depression
The owner is smart
The kind of smart that owns multiple houses and rents them all out
To get money
To survive off of you
The house is repelling
It needs updated
It’s lacking charm
It’s lacking the open floor plan so many desire in a house
The paint that was once as welcoming as the sun,
Is now faded
Let’s start with the first book of this series.
4 stars out of 5.
Forgive us, Father, for we have sinned.
First off, I’m a huge fan of horror books so I was extremely excited to read this book. I will say that I agree with a lot of the reviews for this book when they say that it’s like ‘Mean Girls’ meets ‘The Exorcist’ because it’s spot on.
It all starts with Sofia being the new girl in school due to her mom being in the military so she moves around quite a bit. Sofia is not the best at making friends. On her first day three girls; Riley, Alexis, & Grace, quickly befriend Sofia. Like, super quick. I wish it really were that easy to make friends. Anyways, these three girls are super religious. To the point where they take communion on a daily basis. Sofia also befriends a girl named Brooklyn. Only problem with that is, Riley isn’t fond of Brooklyn. Riley claims that Brooklyn is possessed by the Devil. And very quickly, Sofia finds herself in the middle of an exorcism being done on Brooklyn by Riley and her two little minions. But who of these girls can she really trust?
This book had a pretty fast pace which I liked because if a book doesn’t grab my attention by the second chapter then I’m tossing it. But that definitely wasn’t the case with this book. This is a horror book through and through. Lot’s of creepy stuff, lot’s of gore, and some pretty messed up characters. Danielle Vega doesn’t hold back when it comes to being very descriptive. Some parts had me literally cringing. This book isn’t for people who aren’t fans of gore and straight up sadistic stuff. Although this is a good book, I really wouldn’t call it great. Only because there were some parts in the book where after finishing it I thought, “what was the point of some of those parts?” So there are some fillers. But overall I definitely recommend this book if you’re into some weird, scary stuff.
The Merciless II.
3.5 stars out of 5.
Honestly, I was kind of disappointed with this book. From the description of it I was super stoked because Sofia ends up getting sent to a Catholic Boarding School due to her Mother’s unfortunate death so I thought it was going to be super creepy but, it really wasn’t. The book description said that there was going to be an exorcism performed on Sofia but there wasn’t. That whole “exorcism” part was just straight up torture. Which I mean, that was cool and all but I’m like 95% sure that’s not how correct exorcisms are performed.
The supporting characters in this book were way more interesting than Sofia. I wanted to know more about Jude and his struggles. Hell, Father Marcus was more interesting than Sofia.
But I will say… the ending really made up for the rest of the book. Plot twist for sure. Which who doesn’t love a nice plot twist. So, I will give Vega props for that.
I’m curious to see how the third book will pan out. So I will get to readin’ that one now and get back to you guys with a review.
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